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~~Monday, April 27, 2009~~

11:26 PM

Wat has happen to me i dunno suddenly i feel like reviving this blog many things happen within this 10 days it a super rare phenomenon and all phenomenon have a cause.

Similar to Wai Hong, sth big has happen for me which is able to shook all my cold feeling hard and it is growing stronger by seconds still dunno y out of all time jus when i decide to quiet down and close my life up to myself some1 jacked open the door and budge in.

This is gd news and bad news cos unlike a friend who find sub to get over relationship my way is to shut down emotionally live life wif no feeling at all but this time this phenomenon happen really prove sth i no longer hold on to that experience anymore and i will not speak of it anymore still im goin to be myself without a doubt so that mean i still will not turn bac to those who keep poison me wif all the gd thoughts ppl.

Some1 significant budge in to my life unknowingly even Wai noes how his feeling started whereby im clueless jus so her presence make me blank and it was a totally blank immediately, though im strong in all thing i do but when it come to this im really very shi bai.

I have ask for signs of confirmation to my feeling and really it does happen dunno y but it jus happen for 2 days i asked God this very stupid thing if my feeling is real show me the sign true enuf the next day was cca recuirtment day 1 the first person i saw when reach sch was her then day2 i did nth only keep looking at her from my booth then that nite i asked Him again cos i jus cant believe it that i actually have feelings so i ask for sign again true enuf day3 im suppose to go sch early to meet ppl make wire but jus so it happen that we have key issue again ART SPACE key i gone again so i end up waiting in SAA then guess wat the first person i saw is the 1 i wanted to see most it was her that come in jus rite after me still i was so shi bai that i blank when she was standing beside me signing out the keys i cant even say hi that jus how bad it gets. If its once ppl might say coincidence but i can assure u that there is no such thing as coincidence there is only inevitability and from there i totally give in to the feeling le.

Today i believe i will see her and from the start i go sch early until end of lesson until end of intro workshop end still no sign of her i was on the verge of giving up my hope as it was about the end of the day le but miracle does happen its inevitable while pushing back the flightcase of equip i saw her immediately im lighted up energy is surging in me.

I wonder wat i can do now sia keep blanking everytime oso not the solution hope i can do it i noe i can i believe, cos there is nth impossible for me to handle when im in serious mode.

A cup of milk a day..

~~Tuesday, April 14, 2009~~

1:49 PM

While my sharpness is bac i can sense touble coming my way le need to get prepare for it anw nth can stop me jus that i hate trouble only.

I dun care wat ppl might think as long as im clear of my conscience and noe wat im doin can liao i noe ppl have different thought bout me but it doesnt matter.

Pray hard that no relationship trouble come find me or else im so gonna blow off. Wat a nice sun in the sky now feel like goin out for a spin.

A cup of milk a day..

~~Monday, April 13, 2009~~

10:54 PM

Lucky im bac in the rite time if not im so gonna get into deep shit kana 'exotic' food treatment jus now but it was nth to me. But seriously i long time never kana 'exotic' food treatment le always play number game i oso never kana de.

Still abit unstable i haven funny got bac yet my strenght and confident and mood still got abit ups and down but soon it will stabilize definitely need abit of time to get bac use to it.

Where do ppl vent out the extra strenght they have i wonder cos this few days i feel surging energry in me and i got no place to vent it out feel kind of weird cos last time i punch the wall but now i dun le.

A cup of milk a day..

~~Sunday, April 5, 2009~~

2:04 AM

Summary of the week!!!

Got trap in facebook addicted to restaurant city and mafia wars now even starting mouse hunt.

MONDAY: Got scam reach sch 930am then rehersal cancel end up packing logistic room.

TUESDAY: Got scam reach sch 11am drag until 8pm then start rehersal

WEDNESDAY: Got scam reach sch 1230 then 7+ start rehersal

THURSDAY: Got scam reach sch 8 then SAA open 830 setup FOW, 10am go to Audi meet ryan to set lights but they only here at 11+

FRIDAY: Smart already no more scamming reach sch 830 setup FOW, 10am go set lights and OMG it the actual day of the event le technical area still not done but it went well in the end no cock up during the show.

SATURDAY: Same reach sch 830 setup FOW, play Restaurant City til 11am go audi sleep till everyboday come, watch KO.3Guo on Sam's laptop start rehersal then dinner then actual run. End pack up and go supper at techno.

END OF WEEK!!! THERE IS MORE TO COME START MONDAY FOC + WED ALIC TOTAL DAYS CAMPING IN SCH IS 4DAYS 3NITE WOOT!!!

A cup of milk a day..

~~Thursday, April 2, 2009~~

1:42 AM

OMG!!! I got suck into facebook thing already so addicted to mafia wars haha^^ really is play day and night non-stop.

Shit!!! I brought this to myself damn srgh now super de confuse y do i have to do such stupid things even noe will die still wan to go kill myself haiz as Iceman nth stand in my way or can defeat me and i fear nth yet this is my only weak spot argh the only thing that can shake my heart totally ITS DEADLY argh!!!

By a glimspe of that look im already shaken this much let jus say that bright smile jus doesnt change that look is still as beautiful as ever OMG totally got defeated now haiz T.T Jialat le haiz jus cant pull that image out hopefully i cant turn it from a stumbling block to a stepping stone, an emotion barrier to an emotion booster for myself.

A cup of milk a day..