Monday, July 5, 2010
11:30 PM
Monday blues >< never got to do anything i plan to do today. Other than the movie the rest is bad today.
Watch Triple Tap wif my daughter, the movie was awesome i rated it 4.5 stars out of 5. Totally awesome to the max. All the psychological battle and alot of thinking^^ I like haha^^ Somemore the actors all i like^^ Esp the lead haha^^ Love the plot the movie love everything haha. Can rewatch i dun mind kind. My daughter was like tio scare from time to time by the suddenly loud sound etc. Haha but same she said its a gd movie as well. Actually i doubt she understand the full movie cos its in chinese xP Kinda lost she seems haha^^ Oops suddenly feel like i talk like Yoda xP
Suddenly feel very old when the next generation comes in, currently thinking bout my freshies. Ppl like Jimmy, Allison and Jin Hui from my grp and Xu Jie, Randall, Cons, Hong Wei, Wei Zhe etc etc from all the other grps. Every1 r potential ppl that r ready to be shape. I really cant wait for things to start now.
Looking at Domo it really brings bac alot of memory. Have been hugging it to sleep every nite recently it make me feel safe and warm. I noe i cant head bac le wats left is really to only cherish these memories and move on ba. Maybe the real moving on start here. I have to stay strong be at my top and not let my freshies down.
Telling myself tml is goin to be a gd day, but honestly its an obvious lie to myself. First thing days without u jus dun feel as whole, second im on an injury spree now and third im tired. TSO duty blah blah blah all work. Feel like giving up everything all of a sudden.
No matter how many match i play how many challenge i met nth can contents this soulless empty vessel. Wonder where my soul went.
A cup of milk a day..
Saturday, July 3, 2010
2:41 AM
Today is a normal day for the first time in weeks. Well woke up at 4 wif full consciousness. Woke up several times in between though. Went for Ben's show ESC AGM. Well manage to find 2 crew to help Ben^^ So happy to noe there are people that still can be depend on^^
After show, 1 of the freshie follow me and tgt we met his bro and had dinner tgt. Still amaze how i noe them from sec 1 till now. Brothers wif totally different character yet still able to clique wif them perfectly haha^^ Its really fun and happy to like jus chit chat talk crap wif them. First time in weeks i have smile and laugh this much. Really happy today. Spending time wif my brothers r the best.
Well after the younger bro left we met up wif another brother whoo! Brother since sec 2 whoo! Really its fun. Along the walk by chance met an old sec sch friend. 4 of us jus sit down talk crap. Really its a time there i really put down all my burden and stress and enjoy. When i told another friend this im surprise my that friend can tell that im really feeling happy^^ Very few ppl r able to tell when i happy esp when they r not in presence. This friend noes, amazed amazed still amazed. Really this mean alot to me. Thank you every1 that r wif me today^^ Truly i felt the 'Stand By Me' feeling.
My clique 1 of them ps me and watched Triple Tap now i have to find ppl to watch wif me le. Well actually i have found a friend to watch wif le haha^^ Great cant wait for my next movie outing^^
Goin to register driving in few hrs time. Finally after so long im goin for it. As new things starts. Some old thing still remains. Well jus found out my old love enemy jus got rejected by my old love jus makes me laugh. When will he ever learn haha i dunno xP Pretty bad am I to think this way but i cant help it its jus so funny. For my 2+ years of feelings for her, glad to noe some1 is on the same boat as me haha^^ My thinking is she is really that gd to be able to keep 2 guys to have feelings for her for this long. For me its too far to reach her.
Happy day. Well dun wish to end my day but time jus fly. If i dun end now it will turn into a bad day when headache comes. Time to believe things will be better as days come ba.
A cup of milk a day..
Thursday, July 1, 2010
3:24 AM
Live 2 days without coffee, 1 week without jog, 3 days without bball. Kinda surprise how i am determine to give up coffee by one's word. Guess its a challenge i suppose. Coffee-reliant free. Will depend on my own strength from now on. Deprive from sports how i wish i can i can go bac to it soon. Looking forward for the arrival of weekends where i can get some really gd rest and intense sports. Never look forward to weekend so much be4 not till now.
Brain deprive from rest. Wondering y am i up so late. Well to catch up on MP tonite. 2nd nite this week le. First is on sunday, did till 5am. Dunno wat time will i do till for tonite. I will pull through i suppose. Finally my tots say im moving on. Driven by stress and force of work its sure 1 way. Almost broke down 2 days ago. Lucky didnt snap. Thank to great friends i had. I really appreciate how some new friend can show support more and better then those who noe me for long and only know how to judge. Only wans to shaft their opinions down to other's thinking.
It have revived this monster in me. Im awaken by ur look down. Made out of the frozen nite, a cruel monster.
