Jun Wei.
Joseph.
Li Xin.
Emily.
TPPC.
Wai Hong.
Gerald.
Constance.
Daryl.
Daven.
Li Wei.
Marcus Chua.
Marcus Lay.
Samantha.
Shu Han.
Tzyy Wei.
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要说得多华丽才能说出 最默契的默契 我在你身边 呼吸都沉默 你却懂我每个情绪 这世界太热闹 怎么倾听一颗心呼唤另 一颗的声音 这世界再热闹 还好我们 刚好在这里刚好很安静 所有感受 不用形容 已经那么懂 所有感动是安静的心动 这世界再热闹 也没关系
Confused. Things r happening at a very negative effect. Somehow like this jus doesnt even exist or wat. Felt cold. Stuck inbetween thoughts and stuffs, hard to make decisions. Powerlessness. Hope this feeling will end soon.
Tired!!! Never had a single gd rest throughout the week. Plus sicked sadded sia think should be need to take MC soon. Rough week i had got gd thing and bad things happen jus the gd things got overpowered by the bad. Actually im pretty sad for the past few days, no1 has seen cos i hid it. Is it a time of Let Go? Give and take? Dishearten and i start to feel distances wif the ppl arnd me. Guess i dunnid to say much its pretty obvious.
Certain things i suppose is very accurate i have got the reversed 5 of sword and things happened. A very eventful day i had bad things has overpowered the gd things eventually the gd thing turn bad as well. Not goin to say wat happen here but i feel awefully bad now maybe i jus deserve it. Wish to be forgiven. Dun noe u r angry or sad now. I think im totally not sensitve at all bout things that is happening, only to things that have happened then i started to feel sth but most of the time its too late. I have said that i will wait therefore i will.
Keeping this a short post. Well first day of sch tiring, have tune bac to the study mood yet plus firat day already 9-6 dun have the stamina as well. Bad condition i am today spammed 4 vapor drops still not feeling any better. Still the usuals headache, fever, cough and flu haiz doesnt seem to heal at all. From 6-9+ is PC sub comm interview well the result is aint wat i expected so end of today wif alittle disappointment, abit confuse and afew thoughts. Great lesson start 11 and i still blogging *Sacarsm* Anw i will end of here.
Losing my senses and my reflexes, since when have I become so weak. Well it not like other care either. I jus dun understand ppl. Where do I look like a superman to u, i dun wear red and blue tgt. Collasping very soon. Think no1 noes...
Pain Pain Pain!!! Everything is so painful now. Almost cant stay conscious anymore, knocking out by pain anytime. Bleeding fists, broken ankle and damaged knee, nth compares to the wound in my heart now. After holding in so long i jus gave up in the bus i took jus now, finally tears shed and cried. Is it sth that no matter wat wont do enuf or ppl jus dun see. Am I not human that i cant have emotions? Seriously once again im proven that emotion is a bad thing. Experience is sth that cannot buy. Sacrifice is sth out of own free will so it might or might not be seen by ppl especially the 1 u r sacrificing for. I thought too highly of myself that i noe some1 but in the end it jus backfire. Does care really only mean to coax when feeling down or jus my way doesnt mean care at all. Really am i not worthy? Im tired of being used when needed and ditch to one side when not needed anymore. Even a thousand gd things happened it jus take that 1 bad thing to shatter everything. Its jus so imbalance the world. My heart now is broken for and by a friend but no1 can or shall sees it. Still cant think of Y IS IT LIKE THIS? WAT HAVE I DONE WRONG? FEELS EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT NOW:( I HAVE LET MY FRIEND DOWN AGAIN:( DUN THINK IM WORTHY TO HAVE FRIENDS THEY JUS END UP SAD, I SHOULD JUS DROWN MYSELF AND DIE BETTER.
Alot has happen after my last post. Ppl changed. Things went different even I went different too. Well if I put to earth for jus suffering might as well end it soon. 'He' allowed everything, how long am I goin to be through this.
Jus wanna blog this be4 i sleep. How dumb am i not to realise yet im always so full of myself that i have overlook everything. In the end im jus an idiot im jus dumb im nth but crap. Often i think alot looking at things from tonnes of angle, knowing alot of things and in the end wat i miss out was always wat is impt wat is infront of me, im so damn useless. What i always think r tonnes and tonnes of probability yet only 1 is the real fact, overlooking all the freaking possiblities yet left out wat is impt infront of me. Hate myself for neglecting ppl. Hate it. In the end im jus nth. Truly im the worst. Im an IDIOT to the MAX!!!
Life has return to its rightful order but came to realise i had lost my purpose. No more sense of fufillment no more excitement no much joy left. Been through a very rough event, really bloodboil when ppl dun even trust my strenght at all. Since im so not trustable y ask for help in the first place!!!