Monday, January 31, 2011
1:44 AM
Whee i know that i never made the wrong choice^^ I can proudly say I finally found my hm^^ This hm is different from all the previous hse i go to, there is sth special about it.
I use to go to big church where its big and fun, but there is a lack of sth i always feel. Where now i finally realise or rather is being revealed to me, its the fear that im lack of. The fear of the Lord.
Actually this is the home where the history begins. The first sermon i ever heard from here is years ago when God is still an unknown factor to me had an impact on me. Without knowing anything much him, but the first sermon preached strikes fear in me. I let it pass me that time.
I have keep myself hanging moving from place to place but only stayed awhile in all places i went. Wanting to go bac to this place from time to time but that time there is a barrier. Finally made the decision to go bac. Everything has change from there on.
Now I feel closer to Him than any past encounters.
The people are also very nice to be arnd wif. Very humble and friendly. Past friendship rekindled. Plus plus plus there is no super long waiting time to must wait for all ppl be4 going. There is freedom^^ Still getting to know more and more ppl every week^^
The trials r over and i can see the road ahead of me^^
A cup of milk a day..
Monday, January 17, 2011
11:08 PM
A new Journey has begun once again, where will this lead to?
Im proud to say i finally let go of wat im suppose to let go. Now im a free man.
Now im open to ppl arnd no longer stuck at 1. If ppl who r reading this know wat i means.
Well another breakthrough of cos got its reward. After i let go of wat im biting to for so long and distracted me, I got my intuition bac. I can sense ppl once again^^
2 things happen today. The event and outcome all i have sense like some time be4 it happened. Super accurate. Well at least i know now that i can trust my intuition jus like how i did long time ago.
Very tired recently. I have packed myself wif too many stuff until i have no time to read my book >< I need to endure this is the last lap of the race already.
I really like the level 26 criminal in my book i wan to hurry get to the battle between the awesome police and the brilliantly evil criminal.
A cup of milk a day..
Thursday, January 13, 2011
11:40 PM
Foul mood ttm today
I get irritated easily today. I only wan to get things done fast today as i already no mood for things le. But ppl still keep arguing for small matter. ROAR irritate me more and more. End up i blow up now i jus dun wan to care about anything any more since without me everything still goin to be ok. From now on I shall jus keep quiet will not offer any comment anymore.
Since now is no longer my era y do i still care for. Might as well lay back and dun care anymore. I wan peace now i really need them badly. For out of all thing sth had happen that totally smashed me into pieces. Of all days yet today is the day. Y does ur presence and emotion effect me so much, to the point that i cant even control myself. U r the reason y i fall yet i can do nth about it. If i got a choice i wish i never have to existed as i cant even bear to wish that u didnt exist.
I tried vent my frustration out at the bball court but nth goes well either. I almost wan beat ppl up already at the court. Lose like 1 match that is not suppose to lose. Some fucking guy oso played fucking rough until i wan to beat him up. In the end I jus played rough bac and let the guy taste his own medicine.
Im forced to go aggressive now. I will remove anything that stands in my path. I living by hatred now. I hate myself.
A cup of milk a day..
Monday, January 3, 2011
12:32 AM
I must nt walk bac old path.
Im tired.
Im battling in thoughts for sth i long for
How i wish there is some1 who can understand me.
