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~~Monday, April 27, 2009~~

11:26 PM

Wat has happen to me i dunno suddenly i feel like reviving this blog many things happen within this 10 days it a super rare phenomenon and all phenomenon have a cause.

Similar to Wai Hong, sth big has happen for me which is able to shook all my cold feeling hard and it is growing stronger by seconds still dunno y out of all time jus when i decide to quiet down and close my life up to myself some1 jacked open the door and budge in.

This is gd news and bad news cos unlike a friend who find sub to get over relationship my way is to shut down emotionally live life wif no feeling at all but this time this phenomenon happen really prove sth i no longer hold on to that experience anymore and i will not speak of it anymore still im goin to be myself without a doubt so that mean i still will not turn bac to those who keep poison me wif all the gd thoughts ppl.

Some1 significant budge in to my life unknowingly even Wai noes how his feeling started whereby im clueless jus so her presence make me blank and it was a totally blank immediately, though im strong in all thing i do but when it come to this im really very shi bai.

I have ask for signs of confirmation to my feeling and really it does happen dunno y but it jus happen for 2 days i asked God this very stupid thing if my feeling is real show me the sign true enuf the next day was cca recuirtment day 1 the first person i saw when reach sch was her then day2 i did nth only keep looking at her from my booth then that nite i asked Him again cos i jus cant believe it that i actually have feelings so i ask for sign again true enuf day3 im suppose to go sch early to meet ppl make wire but jus so it happen that we have key issue again ART SPACE key i gone again so i end up waiting in SAA then guess wat the first person i saw is the 1 i wanted to see most it was her that come in jus rite after me still i was so shi bai that i blank when she was standing beside me signing out the keys i cant even say hi that jus how bad it gets. If its once ppl might say coincidence but i can assure u that there is no such thing as coincidence there is only inevitability and from there i totally give in to the feeling le.

Today i believe i will see her and from the start i go sch early until end of lesson until end of intro workshop end still no sign of her i was on the verge of giving up my hope as it was about the end of the day le but miracle does happen its inevitable while pushing back the flightcase of equip i saw her immediately im lighted up energy is surging in me.

I wonder wat i can do now sia keep blanking everytime oso not the solution hope i can do it i noe i can i believe, cos there is nth impossible for me to handle when im in serious mode.

A cup of milk a day..