^^IcyWorld ^^

~~Saturday, July 25, 2009~~

12:10 AM

Dunno wat to say le ppl say it takes time it take time but wat they didnt notice is it not the problem wf time but wat igoin to happen then the time comes. Seriously to trust ppl is a very difficult thing for me to do i can be like every1 else but no1 sees it.

I kinda felt bless that there r always gd ppl arnd me every since i enter poly frinds which r worth making but the fact is i felt abit guilty too cos until now im still unable to trust any1 only recognize their goodness. Well in a sense that i feel that im only acknowledge for my strenght, not me as a person.

Dunno when the thing will happen dunno wat will happen either jus have to wait patiently. Now i realise all things r being made known for a reason and a cause. Well ppl learn as they fall, they fall as they learn. It not about the falling part but is the part where r u willing to pick urself up that matters.

Well seeing a certain some1 now really make me abit unhappy cos by jus seeing the state now that jus trying to laugh and jam and stuff things to get the way through somehow jus reminded me of how i use to be 1 1/2 yrs ago jus how pathetic i am.

Wat happen be4 is a past jus bring bac the memory that i think that first person i can trust yet end up leading me bac to distrust again. I think its still too early for me to taste the fruit of trust i suppose. When will the fruit be ripe. Dunno y i jus keep thinking that answer lies on the word relationship, it sound and feel wrong but the the intuition is really telling me that the answer lies there. Maybe jus have to wait thing will happen somehow, i believe in inevitibility. Wat wans to come will come eventually.

A cup of milk a day..