Lost is where you found me, Shattered and frail, you love me still, you love me still. Trouble may surround me, my heart may fail but you never will, you never will. Wat is the cause for the me now? Suddenly feel abandoned and forsaken again.

The feeling of solitude, hiding in 1 corner laughing and crying where no 1 sees. The hole is big and its unfillable on par to a bottomless pit. Its a direct pain from inside out that im feeling rite now, it starts from the core. Cannot explain only feel, hope i wish i can throw it out as physical pain.

If i wan to say there r things im hiding from ppl i can say the only thing that im hiding is lonliness but somehow i dun even noe the result myself that how well have i hid it. Im tired le. Really feel that everything is meaningless now.

Guess that no1 will care now, every1 have their own problems too who will have the extra thoughts to care about some1 like me. The past is jus a memory. My intuition already telling me sth bad is happening i cant seem to be prepared for it have i really turn that weak.

Actually im quite mesmerize by melody of a symphony band or a jazz band the music they play able to calm my mood when it is down. Sometime it jus take intrumental and lyric is not required. The resounding melody allow 1 to hear their own soul.

A detective is well prepared in situations, but those who r not and r well prepared are criminals.

Play the perish song, melody of death. Everything have a closing and this is the end of everything.