Pain Pain Pain!!! Everything is so painful now. Almost cant stay conscious anymore, knocking out by pain anytime. Bleeding fists, broken ankle and damaged knee, nth compares to the wound in my heart now. After holding in so long i jus gave up in the bus i took jus now, finally tears shed and cried. Is it sth that no matter wat wont do enuf or ppl jus dun see. Am I not human that i cant have emotions? Seriously once again im proven that emotion is a bad thing. Experience is sth that cannot buy. Sacrifice is sth out of own free will so it might or might not be seen by ppl especially the 1 u r sacrificing for. I thought too highly of myself that i noe some1 but in the end it jus backfire. Does care really only mean to coax when feeling down or jus my way doesnt mean care at all. Really am i not worthy? Im tired of being used when needed and ditch to one side when not needed anymore. Even a thousand gd things happened it jus take that 1 bad thing to shatter everything. Its jus so imbalance the world. My heart now is broken for and by a friend but no1 can or shall sees it. Still cant think of Y IS IT LIKE THIS? WAT HAVE I DONE WRONG? FEELS EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT NOW:( I HAVE LET MY FRIEND DOWN AGAIN:( DUN THINK IM WORTHY TO HAVE FRIENDS THEY JUS END UP SAD, I SHOULD JUS DROWN MYSELF AND DIE BETTER.