Life has return to its rightful order but came to realise i had lost my purpose. No more sense of fufillment no more excitement no much joy left. Been through a very rough event, really bloodboil when ppl dun even trust my strenght at all. Since im so not trustable y ask for help in the first place!!!

Its time to pass on the duty. Nth i cant bear to leave when entrust to trustable ppl. Talking bout trust looks like the time have come again for me to leave. Im kinda done wif wat i am doin now ppl have learnt ppl cant be bothered etc etc. Instead of feeling accompish im more and more distant and feel more and more useless by day.

Walking in ppl's life all life long and walked out when they dun need me anymore has been wat i always do. Ppl dun even turn bac and even show the slightest bit of gratitude when parting. Seeing old friend/ familiar face always got me smiling always becos it jus reminds me of wat i have done.

Today was the worst, in an event saw old sec sch friends, saw some1 i like, saw some1 chio from my sec sch, saw classmate, saw enemy, saw alot more ppl. Jus not my day, didnt got a chance to talk to the chio friend, seriously at that moment im really confident but haiz thx to Daven spoil everything. Saw J taking photo and im running around, pass by her quite afew times. Dunno even she notice my existant at all. Old friends come at the wrong time i cant talk to them at all. Classmate jus drop a hi bye. Nth significant happen even wif the amount ppl i met.

My strenght cant cater to the needs of ppl anymore. Soonner or later ppl will jus kick me out of their world and deem me as no use.

This 2 day i keep having weird dream. Telling me my angel goin to appear soon dun even noe whether its truly anot some1 who really goin to understand and accept me for who i am.