Time check 0355 yeah and now im blogging finally for the past 1+ hr i have been updating my lappy seem like all update jus flood in out of no where but at least it up to date now.

Have neglected my sch work totally, life have been revolving arnd PC and technical stuff dun understand y but think i can consider a perfectionist ba. Feel uber sad this afternoon tonnes of miscommunication and hic-ups not a gd way to begin the day. First is the art space key went missing and its the first day my new sub comm IC a show. Next is the stage thingy, I had to leave my lesson halfway jus becos of a call from the organizer. Feel bad for the teacher and myself too I shouldnt do that. After the call, I went bac to class and from wat I noe is some crew who is suppose to be there set up is not there. Stressed really got the urge to dash out of class at that moment, but its grp forming time. I felt bless im a treasure in the class as apparently there is 3 POA student in class jus nice got 3 grp so we have to be distributed that make me super easy to find a grp. After I calm down le im certain the situation at plaza is safe le i notice the grp im in got a pretty girl which i didnt notice when grp forming. Thats y i keep saying my grp got pretty girl cos apparently thats sth gd happen after such a stressful time so plz dun get me wrong here.

Went to second CDS after the plaza show, then audi. Did final touches of my lights where i have been doin for like few days, saw Ivy outside Audi, apologised for the miscommunication happen in the afternoon. Aside from PC tagline "The show must go on..." I got my principle of " Good quality service" felt damn bad that afternoon is a screw up. Then dinner, I ate halfway Ivy came again ask me to sound check for "Sweet Poison" an indian band that is performing whereby they r suppose to be scrape off the programme list as they r providing too muct problem for the past few rehersal, its the second time i work wif them. At that moment, its still not cfm that they r coming bac yet really blessed to have Anthony's help on the audio side during the sound check. Shout alot but I tried to cater to all their needs, sound check were great but somehow the programme flow need to be altered again that got our SM pissed off. Checked wif Ivy again to see if they were still performing and naturally dunno y I starting to persude her to let the band come bac and play. No cfm answer is given as she's not the 1 making the desicion, but she is surprised by the speed of set up today, partially I believe is becos the band decided to coopeate ba.

I was at stage when Ivy was discussing wif Danny whether to let the band be bac and I was called, that moment I really stunned. Went up explain the whole situation to him, and he is still hesitating asking me to gauge the the success rate given the crew's ability I give a bold 90% but apparently it not enuf to revive the band, he wan a 99% confirmation, putting my faith and using the situation to my advantage I continue to persuade him and by using curtain close I gave him a 99% assurance. So after the desicion is being made I told the crew the band is revived. Everything is planned nicely, show went nicely, it was great including the band. Im happy to make that promise to Danny, im able to keep my word wif all the crew help^^ Took a huge risk if it fails I will screw up the day twice and that can kill me for at least a week, lucky it didnt.

Well I dun work well wif praise, concern, encourgement and compliments. During debrief I was complimented by Ivy. Actually I dun deserve that compliment cos I screw up during the day.

That brings me bac to square 1 as in my tots, dun think many will understand. Instead of being the support sometimes I do need support too. Im not a multi-tool though I can do alot of things.
How I really wish the some1 im thinking about can appear but its far too impossible cos such ppl dun exactly exist in my life. Maybe thats y I look up to stronger ppl ba bac then when im in my sec sch days, they seem reliable and maybe thats y I feel very secure arnd them cos anything I screw up they can cover for me which make me dare to try new things. Conclusion I like strong ppl in the area of abilities not jus strenght. Thinking bac actually I noe y I like Someone