Starting a new lifestyle now. Aim to sleep at 10 everyday but failed most of the time still sleeped be4 12. Think my body starting to readjust as I didnt hae any good sleep at all keep waking inbetween the nites, end up doin sth bad this morning haiz should have said those word wat has got into me. All along i have been affecting ppl and troubling people. There is no end to the workload. Only 1 thing is keeping my fighting spirit up high now and its indespensable unless 1 condition is being met. Have to be stronger must be i mean. Today Xiao Wei ask if i wan to join his team in practicing bball my first reaction is excited but then thinking the workload i had i sianz diao but still i told him to update me on the training dates if i can i will go down.

The rain recently is amazingly great i love rainy day the best they r the best melody to my ear if there were thunder it will be better. I find myself a very crap person. People arnd me actually dun trust me as much as i tot. I find that i tell them sth they all dun believe until they experience it themselves despite my warning. Had i gone back on any of my word that i had promised:(

My temper is bac all of a sudden yesterday almost beat a uncle up at the bball court cos he super arrogrant but skill not there i dun mind ppl playing rough but to him is like he jus keep hitting my face like wat the hell. Got to control my fury be4 i go out of control, think i have 'ren' enuf le i oso got my own output to vent out im no container.

After the other day my bro brought some sweet and i keep eating now i got addicted to sweet once again and is spamming those kind. Loves sweets wif coating.

Today truly is the worst never drink any coffee then nvm my day ended in a screw up late to meet friend blur at the jap restraunt cos went to eat sushi after that almost knock pole give off wrong location to meet ppl see me think i crazy cos they give me the weird look then at the end of the day i notice i left 5 buck for the whole of this week wat the hell everyday need to go sch at 9 and end earliest 4 dunno how am i goin to survive gonna be a fasting week for me must endure. Im feeling truly the worst now not becos of money or food but my character jus simply affect ppl arnd me haiz how i wish i can go into hiberntion and cut myself from the world.