This post is goin to talk bout my day or rather my week but majority my day today haha^^ Finally I went to church service after so long have been more than a month since i went for service beside serving sound on most sat.

Came to realise how weak i become when i have started to depend on people more or less think i take them for granted and overly depend on them. Ppl r not goin to care bout wat i have become cos they have their own things to mind too. Even ppl say it not a burden but end up i noe it is.

Have been sleeping early and playing basketball for the whole week, even i sleep early in still shag by the intensive bball training i commit myself in ever since i got force to go on leave on my CCA. Climbing out of bed seems difficult each day but i manage to do so. This really brings bac memory of sec sch days where i have to wake myself everyday and go to sch and never late a single time.

This few days after being scolded i keep having flashback of old days. Memories that i dun wan to remember surfaced. Some old days wif some sec sch friends and stuff only to conclude im alone once again. Feel so rejected on Thursday no1 response to my call nicely its like i owe them alot like this. Had to be independently strong once again. Im jus different from the crowds maybe i haven find the ture place for me yet. Having alot of plastered smiles jus not to let ppl arnd me worry. Think it becos im a kid thats y i dun fit in to the grown up world ba.

Nth felt as peaceful as worshipping the Lord, the feeling of calmness is jus incomparable. Today i used alot of brain now mentally shag. After service tot of goin hm but they got an event i couldnt resist myself my blood is itching the moment i heard it. Zone had a Mystery Murder event somehow detective related. Well didnt get the chance to interview all the suspect so dun think my deduction is very correct but more or less there i believe.