Train Train Trian got to train more. Need focus stay mentally strong. My friend jus brought a bike brand Giant cos him 1.8k woohoo but its damn shiok cycling on it the gear all smooth and the suspension was amazing even go on a kurb the impact wasnt felt much as though nth happen. Well wonder y im feel like so happy even the bike is not my well im a bike lover. His bike really damn gd think i will aim for a bike arnd his budget but I will DIY and customise it^^

So nervous ><>< As left of from last wednesday haven been in much gd mood. I think i over strain my muscle my muscle now takes time to react even my brain response fast. Thx to the match wif those 2 monster the other day totally burn my muscle out. When ppl play against stronger player i realise they really shift to maximum gear. Not jus me but i have seen quite alot of ppl in my court like this le they play extremely well when they face monster and gaint compare to the usual match they play by themselves.

Sth has been bothering me feel like there is a burden on my shoulder and sth in my mind i dunno wat it is but it kinda give of a rather gd feeling but its troubling me, contradicting i noe but it really feel this way. By the way i need to rediscover my limits once again, think i underestimated myself alittle. Certian things last time i cant accomplish i manage to do it now yet my mentality still stuck wif the idea of i cant do that thing cos not enuf strenght and confident.

Actually i wasnt happy today not at the begining and it turn out to be worse. I screwed up 1 of my teammates presentation jus becos when i was designing the slides i add in a wrong picture and during Q&A the lecturer did ask bout it and it seem like cant be answered. Guess now my friend is angry wif me becos of it. Wat the fuck am i doin. I only noe im a failure today screw up my friend's presentation, forgot a promise that i have made wat else can possibly happen is the detestatble memories of mine is bac again. Can some1 do a kind favor by throwing me a knief and end this freaking miserable life for gd.