1 thing straight i cant understand ppl and ppl cant understand me thats for sure. Im jus weird ok WEIRD!!! Happy? So this is wat im expected to be. Im jus problematic and ppl jus hate me. Im a bad friend every1 give me that feeling even they didnt say. Wats wrong to care.

Im uber freaking sad and angry today yet who reads that signal im sending. Sad is that im useless im helpless against situations and i noe i have the capability yet dunno y i cant resolve it. I let my crew get scold i didnt get a gd welfare for my crew. I let every1 down.

Hell im angry cos nth go well at all. Everything is screwed up since day 1. Day 2 worse, dunno wat is install for day 3. Everyday i had irresponsible ppl ps show. Lacking of manpower then SDO still find trouble wat the hell sia. Then i jus bring hurt to ppl. Becos of me alot happened.

Now I got more work to do. Where my heart is now. Bruise knuckle and bleeding joint this is wat i get again. Has the layer of ice come bac yet. The world is forcing me to walk bac the old path that i once walked. First thing first i need to clear up my own mess the seed that i have scatter i have to uproot all the problem.