So wat now im wrong again jus becos being nice to ppl WOW HOW AMAZING. Dunno who is behind this dun think wan to guess either but its seriously upsetting me. To noe things of such details only there is 1 person dun think i need to guess either. Well wats wrong wif ppl? Treat ppl nice cannot, then i wan black face cannot. So wat now!!! If expressing myself is wrong then fine then!!! I jus be some emotionless living zombie then. Jus becos sth i cannot do for 1 person doesnt mean i cant help the others. SO does this means im not allowed to move on in life or should i say im suppose to be stuck in this endless loop of pain and suffering as torture. Cant i have new friends, well it seem that way.

Y dun ppl understand me!!!! ROAR!!!! Well guess that only my true bros out there understand me more than any1 who think they r. At least they noe my intentions clearly and not over question or doubt me. THEY HAD TRUST. I never disappoint them too never. Awesome bros i had in life. Though they cant provide much help in advising but surely they understand and stood by me giving me encouragement even wif jus bball they r bringing me out of my misery. Wat did the rest of the ppl has done well i shall not oversay anything.

Shall blog sth bout bball. Its destructive again today. China ppl r rough >< got 1 person threw the ball infront of me straight at my face. Im fuming mad after that and played rough bac. Same injury but worsen, some how enjoying the pain i receive. Felt the challenge in my heart. Only desire to grow stronger even at the cost of myself like how i use to be. A monster i am indeed. Now i got new court name seem that my past name dun apply anymore. My name as a monster has ended now im call bulldozer for some stupid reason im like wat the heck. Won all my matches but some is wif the help of strong players, I wanna be stronger and only depend on my own strength again to win.

After long hrs of bball, i realised that my body has seriously weaken physically. Well at near end of the whole period i can feel my muscles r not responding to my tots much though i still have the stamina to carry on. My body cant catch up wif my stamina thats sth i haven felt in a long time. Think this is wat i get from long time no sports. I have to train myself bac. Re-live my motto once again. "Break the limit of all limits, to believe wif an unwaver heart" I will not stray from my motto in life again i swear.