Finally the 6 week marathon have come to an end, I have finally release myself from the work stress and limit and willpower i set for myself. only to realise im am jus a very tired empty vessel with nth to turn to.

Sth new in my life i guess is jus that 1 thing everybody knows lor, dun think its new oso le. Seriously im losing confident in this war. I really dunno wat to say or wat to do. Its the first time im actually trying to go for it.

Previously i didnt have that courage to take action only grumbling behind and being emo and sad and regret bout the past and blaming on the betrayal. This time for real for this 1 particular time i actually wan to go for it even though im scare. Im very SCARE. It been very long since i feel fear in me. However there is a power of love revolving.

For once actually missing some1 make me feel that the next meeting will be even valuable. I can read 3 hrs straight without falling asleep as that book has become my motivation. I began to change once again. Think its bout time that i evolve by applying wat i learn in the book. All that has been told has worked.

Im really tired now >< gonna catch some good rest will post new updates soon. All i can say is at the start of the gamble i have already showhand is either i win all or lose all. There is no turning bac.