When the world came crashing down. Overwhelmed. No1 is there for me, no1 i can think of. Left alone. Nth in this world can contain me.

For the past weeks, since the start of musical props making im already not gd in condition. For weeks a broken me have to support a bunch of ppl who r dependent on me. guess this is wat is call responsibility. Days goes by i become more broken and more numb. I become very vulnerable.

So vulnerable till i lost my guard. I lost myself. My believe swayed, and i think the feeling in the musical is jus a moment of weakness. Overwhelmed by work and emotion i keep on hiding and continue walking. No matter how broken how slow how reluctant i feel i still need to drag myself to walk forward.

I feel like running away but its pointless cos things catch up to me pretty fast. Be4 i know it im surrounded by work and stress. I got haunt nites after nites by things. Im tired wonder if anybody see it.

Like how messy this post is so is me now. Shit still continue to happen in my life. Tight deadlines, problems unsolved, emotions. Looking bac my life once again and i realised this is nth different from 3+ years ago. Im bac to square 1. With no ppl to count on i need to stand by own against the storm.

Be it i worth it anot im not asking for ppl to understand me anymore. I give up on that thought ppl r mainly selfish thats an undeniable fact. They care bout self more than others. I shall run alone, once again its jus between me and the sky.

I only wan to find a peaceful place to dwell for the moment till im healed. Somehow i know the perfect place to be but dunno y im holding bac.