Whats wrong wif me again. Is it due to these fatigue?

Suddenly all affected by old thinkings. Overwhelm by imagination. Same old stuff, 1 person and alot of other bad memories that cannot be erase. All the wrong thing done and said.

1 thing for sure I failed to let go of her again. I didnt get to see her today, and it feels like sth big is already missing in my day. I didnt even go bball today cos im damn tired. The best day of the week i look forward to is ruined pretty much. Only exception today is still the joy to be in God's hse and brought a birthday present for a brother of mine.

In a convo wif a brother of mine, I asked is it really so hard to find some1 better than her that I cant let go that badly. The reply was maybe becos i cling too hard to this that i fail to see some1 better. I really dunno wat i can do now already.

Due to the fatigue i think my body is failing me again. Kinda not a gd sign as now im independent wif no1 to depend on i really need to take the extra care for myself in order to not affect basic life essentials.

Looks like things really happen for a reason. Im really not ok now. If i noe myself alittle better i can be alittle stronger.