After this few days I can conclude designing is so not my area of expertise. Till now i cant come out wif a work that can satisfy my expectation. I end up deleting more than i do. Really hope God will help me through this. Time is running short.

I feel like an idiot. Y I can like at least talk to all the other ppl except for her. I think i must really be a retard sia. And y do I avoid her every time i saw her. It like im always easy to know ppl but y i jus cant be easy wif her.

Today went bac sec sch to train tgt wif my ex cca the boys brigade. Adventure Quest is coming up they r all training hard haha^^ Actually im surprise by the ppl there as i was told by few friends who went bac be4 they said the boys r very guai lan but when i went bac i find them lovable and not really that guai lan like wat my friends said to be. Maybe becos im much more worse than them bah i dunno. Still i had a fun time wif them make me feel like going bac every week to join them sia.

Nth beats a gd training in the morning, its really long since i does it. The feeling is jus so different from all other trainings im in now and i really enjoy it. Tiring cfm but the moment training end u know u have pulled through its like shiok.

This house of God im in i dun think im going to change anymore. I found peace in here and things i love is in here. Its like really coming bac to my first love. The place where all history starts and memory built upon. Its the foundation that cannot be move. Now joining bible study too le. Honestly reading God's word never had been this joyous till wat i have experience now.

I really feel like a happy kid now. Its like i really wan to act like a kid but cant. Reason for wanting to act like a kid is the amount of joy i felt in my nowadays somehow it cant be contain and welling out turning me into a happy kid. Need to suppress if now ppl will think im crazy haha.