Blogging wif my blackberry while waiting for interview. Today is a really bad day there is a lot of set back. What does this mean? Failed driving due to nervousness. Fail to ask some1 whom is impt to go for tml's chalet. How much more can I fail in 1 day.

I realised that certain things cannot be change not even with hard work. Its like some wish that only can remain as wish but unable to be fulfill. If things r weird now how is it going to be in the future is we ever get tgt again. I really can't imagine cos its already aching inside badly. Going the extra mile doesn't cut it looks like certain things cannot be recover. No matter how many step I took there is still this barrier. Dun know if you realise but I did. I know its my fault that u put up this barrier but it really hurt now. I know I had make afew mistake but never think that things will turn out this way. Heard the last sentence from a song. Usually no I'm able to pull through the hurt of this barrier but I failed today as I was too sad by things there isn't positive left in me to negate the hurt today. Guess I will be fine by tml. I told myself I won't give up not until every inch of my flesh is ripped to shreds.