Realise i have been sleeping late recently for different purposes. And somehow its built into me that i cant sleep early anymore. Supper become an essential to me now and dumplings r my favorite.

My repairing process is done i suppose. Now im feeling myself and im all time gd no longer resent myself for what i am. Know I have built quite a bad reputation for some ppl in my past 3 years. Kinda inevitable but im not going to dwell in it and making myself all bad and guilty. Yes there is guilt but its shouldnt be dealt that way neither living in self pity. I will face it haha^^ My past have become jus merely memories now nth more nth less.

I dunno what has got into me that cause me to think its impossible as an option. I believe that time im still quite low as my repairing is jus starting. After today's talk i see the light and picture better. Btw i didnt emo today not a single bit, jus letting what you say sink into my head thats all. I wan to take note of what you say and not jus listen and forget. So dun worry its not ur fault in any way haha^^ All the more i should thank you for letting me see things i have concluded be4 and fail to review after haha^^ All I can say now is im ready believe it or not but i am willing to risk. So will u dare to take a ride wif a devil be4 but an unknown now? Throw away all past and try what its is now?

I really believe ppl that come into ppl's life really have a purpose. I would really like to thank Pauline for being the catalyst in my repairing process^^ I believe God put her in my life for that purpose and it succeed^^ Without knowing her i guess i might still be defining what i have lost in my life stage now. I believe ppl learn faster when seeing themselves in others cos they r an example. Short period of our life cross and its bout time to close the curtain and let her leave for her future. Its really nice knowing her and for being a great friend in such short time.

Once again im in the arms of the great sky i really feel glad^^ its like the sky disown me from the ways im in be4 and now took me bac again. Now I can feel the closeness when i stare into the sky again. Its the same i felt 4 years ago be4 i got disowned. The feeling is like when i look up into the vast sky, it feels like there is a warm airy arm wrap arnd my neck and the hand is resting on my shoulder. Feel like some1 comfortable is there. Sound spooky like some spirit eh well im very certain its not. Its the sky itself^^

Well enuf blogging for the day and its time to go grab my dumpling ramen haha^^ Sleep early tonite cos tml have PC Training its going to be draining again 2hr of full attention to all the dear freshies haha^^ Its like my full attention goes to every1 i interact at 1 go for a duration of 2hr it really drains me out for today's interview but its worth it cos the ppl i interact wif have jus turn from come for nth to promising ppl in commitment to the cca. I mean not to brag but since i have the rapport wif ppl i jus wan to do wat I can for PC but still my hands can only stretch to a certain lenght i cant save everybody. The least is i can save the few. Let the small act effect ripples haha^^