Today is rather a tough day for me. I realised i cannot make the same promise to the 2 ppl at the same time. And that promise is commitment. I have made my decision somehow. Im going to give up on my church side. Gonna make my stand. Now i understand what Eliot meant in the show. No matter wat im not going to give up on sth i held on so tight for so long. Well at least now is that promise for the side im giving up is not made yet. Im jus going to make my stand on the day when the promise need to be made.

Honestly im quite offended when some1 made a comment today. My church friend actually TP oso. Well during cca awards he saw PC took quite a few awards. Then today when the bs grp was gathered to talk about the commitment thing, I said i helping CCN on fri for my cca his comment was dunnid help lah u grad liao plus get so many award oso enuf le lah. My face turn black but i never argue anything. What he think I am! I dun join a CCA jus to earn seal point or to get award or wat shit. Honestly i dun even need a freaking award ar a fking achievement to keep me in the CCA plz. Even if i remain crew lvl for my entire 3 years i will still commit to the CCA lor! Its about the passion about the heart not the achievement the awards ok. For christ sake i didnt even get a single award last year cos i wasnt eligible as i fail 1 subject but i never complain a single shit about it. I even went about to help PC do the CCA award for that year plz thats wat drive me and its call PASSION! If u dun understand then screw it, dun come commenting to me bout shits like that.

I like the peacefulness of my church look forward to go to it everyday but kinda as soon as i reached there during weekend it feels not that special anymore like objective met then wat next kind of feeling. Missed 2 weeks of adult fellowship already. More like i dun wan to go cos I still feel weird among all the adults.

Super tired dunno y but yah slept through the afternoon still super tired. Totally off alertness today. Im really that nua until i can jus stone while standing. Dinner wif parents then saw Pris from PC never see her until she like walk up and pop out infront of me calling my name out loud. Damn malu sia. I really stoned><

Well tml only 1 event in my organiser and that is Dim Sum buffet^^ its like more than 1 year never go bac le then tml finally got the chance to go enjoy haha^^ I still can remember the last time i had it is wif 2 bros of mine we eat until so bloated that we wan to output what we eat immediately after the buffet haha xP