Other than haiz all I can say is still haiz. So dumb of me to not believe my instinct when its accurate most of the time. How is wish I have my bag wif me now roar! This 3 days have been bad. Guess my gd days ended, streak of 3 bad days le. 1 worse than the other. First I have a teammate injured during competition, second I have ppl come stir a whirlpool of burden and frustration in me that took me 1 day to screw it bac. Third I won't mention. Still I refuse to let my mood plunge if the world go against me I will jus go against it bac. I have the entire sky to back me up I won't lose.

Honestly now I dun look forward to anything anymore no point be obsess wif it and feel bad I jus wan to clear up this mess in me. All I need is a piece of paper, suddenly it seem so precious. I have my beloved pencil wif me I jus need paper to write on. I have saved work in my brain that I can do anytime all I need is to write down the results. Its a gd thing to have this brain of mine. It always have multiple plans as things turns bad.

Freaking hungry now>< no supper no breakfast this morning>< All I can say is I'm never going to ignore my instinct ever again I mean NEVER! I freaking ignore it twice and it spoil my day totally. First I woke up I saw breakfast on the table instinct tell me to eat I refused cos I was looking forward to the big meal later. Now have to face consequence of it hunger plus well when a dad buy breakfast and u dun eat it what will happen next, think I dunnid to elaborate. Second coming out of hse instinct say bring bag I refuse again. I even went to my bag and dig out my freaking jacket thinking that's wat I will bring only. Now I dun have what anything to do. Seriously to screw up my day wif my own error and ignorant is no joke I hate this feeling ttm. No mood for anything now.

Plan M: walk to town tour 1 round come bac chinatown jus nice. Shall do that or maybe in the mids of walking I found a piece of paper I can write on then I will go about Plan F.