Stressed!!! i have no idea y the sudden but im jus stressed. Spamming 3 good songs at 1 go but its not helping. Only know that my life have been passing 4 mins by 4 mins becos of the songs. How i wish ideas can flow like how i bog now wif undisturbed thoughts flowing in me. I even pop the last breezer at hm and gulping it down to soothe myself. I have a plan wif no alternative now so if it fails i cannot save anything and i dun like this kind of insecurity. I need to refine it somehow. Creating sth impossible out of limited resource is shit. Im really very dependent on the equipment tml as all need to be fully functional even 1 screwed oso will screw the plan up. Put many thoughts over the event this 3 days. Manage to have back up plan on many things alr. Even calculated the worse case scenario for many things.

Im stirred up again. I feel werid cos im feeling things im not suppose to feel. Saw her today more like she pops by. Dunno y but im happy to see her its like really happy kind of happy. She finding me is jus rare ttm. Well she came jus nice when the training jus end and while the crew packing we jus chat. Haha random topics but jus enjoyed her presence. And now im jus expecting her on the dates she said she will come. Tml nite movie marathon im expecting her presence. Surprisingly anything she ask me to i would do my best to help thats wat i realised. Im one confused dude now. Even for the keyboard too, though she strongly believe that it cant be accomplished in jus 2 months but she say she will be happy if i really can. Cos i seriously think i can and i see her happy as a morale boost than being discourage to her dun believe cos its really too hard.

My head really hurts now, shouldnt have drank alcohol though its jus little bit but it make my head alot worse. It didnt soothes me but weaken me. Shit now i have more problem to deal wif situation jus gets harder. Am i at my limit? I hope not cos i know im not that weak. Ahhhh migraine feeling bac again :( Tml please give me a gd day dun haunt me until the whole thing ends plz.