Its been 3 days :( I freaking haven sleep for 3 days already dunno how i endure but yeah i did. All becos of stupid comp and finally its all done today everything is fully functional now. No more kaobei from my bro for no comp use. Feel like breaking down physically le. Exhausted my stock of pain killer too need to see doc and get soon. the lasted dated stock i got was bac to the start of this year. Seriously now i take pill i think of pauline haha jus got to know that she pops pill quite frequent too jus that different pills. Seriously the more we talk the more common we have. Im really starting to think how can 2 identical ppl in personality exists it feels more scarier than a clone haha^^

Jus met up the bros again at usual spot somehow we have an unbreakable tradition now every since the cafe cartel promotion. Though im tired but meeting them is always fun haha^^ Recently no more girls topic and we talked cock and joke bout life. Somehow life seem like a thing under us and not above us when we r doing that. I so totally like the panda joke jus now its freaking funny 1 of our originals^^ I got a bro who is always in the same frequency as me haha we think along the same line then we stack joke upon jokes then we laugh until stomach cramp haha^^

Was quite down recently due to certain matters. Its not i dun wan to give up but is i can. I can confidently day all promise i made i have a choice to keep it or not but there is 1 promise i cannot make cos i noe i have no control over it and i cant keep it for sure. I cant promise to forget her cos its far too impossible for me. For me i think that is the only impossible in my life. So well as much as i cant let go of that i guess i will jus corner myself alone and not hurt others anymore. For its much better to suffer myself then allow others to suffer. I quit no more nets out there its jus me and me only. No more fish, close business liao. Unless im found if not dun think i will hold any hopes for 'fish' business again. Its Pauline that reminded me to be skeptical have to thank her for that cos she returns me to who i really am^^ Im seeing myself in some1 else's eye. Seriously we r like 2 identical ppl in personality the more i think the more interesting it gets. So its like now since we know each other im curious to find out wat will the other me do in that different life. Things have changed so do I.

Gonna be the man that can do everything. Bac to the 1 rule restriction.