We r all addicts, addicted to our own past.

Its 4am and i still cant sleep. Not that im excited for the trip or anything its jus simply i took a nap in the evening. Manage to get wat i wan done today. Enjoy the rest of my time watching show and not maple-ing for 1 day.

As much as i wan to go malacca on thurs i sorta dun wan go oso. I wan to stay in sg help watever area i can for the upcoming camp. Same feeling i had the last time be4 i go Genting. I jus wan to help more im still attached to the cca alot. Still the same words im attached to the cca not the ppl and ppl jus come as part of the cca.

The quote on the top really mean alot. As day grew I realise i have no recollection in memories over the past 2 years. I have no idea y but i jus dun remember at all like all the event in my life that happened. I cant remember much really im jus left wif bits and pieces thats all not even sufficient to recall any event. I cant even account for the ppl that came cross me for the past 2 years except for those who r still in my life.

All the feelings r not bothering me anymore and im fine alone finally. Doing what im suppose to do everyday. Somehow i really love to read now. I have a list of books waiting for me to read. Recently some1 said i was cold last time but now not that cold le i wonder is that a compliment anot cos i dunno which part of me do i like more. More like im on and off now im only a ppl person when im needed to the rest of the time im cold. Im more comfortable like this at least i get to be myself. Then another day my chc sis say i always look serious and fierce so i dunno whose word to believe oso. Jus let my instinct run ba. I trust my monstereous instinct more now.