Today seeing very gd friend off to oversea study. Somehow im overwhemled by sadness. I really cant bear to see her leave. Guess i have delievered my last act of service for her be4 she fly. Seems like these few days my tots is built arnd her. All i can think of r things about her like wat is there i can still do for her be4 she leave. Almost burst into tears and wan do stupid thing on the spot when she leave. Now i know how hard it is to contain those feelings on the spot but i survived it.

I blame myself for not having the rite idea for parting gift soon. I feel like im the most useless and dumbest person on earth now. Wat fayanne said was rite 'Isnt it abit too late to give after she fly', that sentence really stab me deep. I only had the idea yesterday though i think for few days already but the idea only came yesterday. Its too late to get the idea materialise in time. At the airport jus now its like different grp of ppl have sth to give her except me. It feels like double blow to me. Nevertheless i will keep my word and get the thing done for her.

Ever since i know her till now have been talking in msn every nite except for a couple of nites never talk thats all. Those nite that im unable to online i will like tell her that im unable to online. Cos i got so used to talk to her that now suddenly feel like i have no purpose online in msn after she is gone. The place she is at is 2hr ahead of sg time. Dun even know when will she online again.

Even though its not like im never going to see her again or wat but I still cant stop myself from missing the yesterdays. Days of her being arnd me. Guess i got too use to her being arnd me. All the outings we went i can rememeber so clearly in my mind now. Even the stupid moments seems fun. No matter how much i cant stand her troublesome ideas i still give in to her and make everything possible. I think she is the only one that can late for a meeting for 1hr or more and i still wont be angry at her. She is never on time for any meeting be4.

Seems like making her smile is one of my task for the past few months. Taken note of every likes and dislike she mentioned. Did my last act of service to make her smile. Kinda realise this is the last time that she will get to drink gong cha, offered to buy and give her. Seeing her smile and enjoying it jus now feels like i have did sth rite.

After knowing her i have once again step foot into serangoon once again. By chance she works in Teadot at the new serangoon shopping mall, Nex. By chance im free and know the place becos of the past. By chance 1st dinner outing we ate at chomp chomp. By chance we talked about icecream. By chance she was recommanding to me 'Udders' icecream. By chance we search the location of the shop using phone internet. By chance we found that they open a shop opposite chomp chomp. From that day on chomp chomp has been our default place of meeting. This is how an old place i know in the past has been overwritten wif new meaning. The place is unique to us that whenever we go without each other we will tot and miss each other.

Somehow my willingness to travel oso played quite a big part. I really feel blessed that i live in tamp as there r so many transport line. I can go anywhere and still have the last bus bac hm. A random call from her and i can bus down to serangoon jus to eat icecream and bus her bac to yishun and i still have bus hm.

All I can say is I really meant my word. Everything i have promised or said so far there is not one that i have not done till date. I was very close to breaking 1 promise but luckily it didnt happen.

Had a really fun time wif her the past few months. It marks the full stop of what is as off now. But there r more that i have promised to do. 1 that includes to go aust find her when i can get leave from my ns, do bungee jumping tgt and other extreme sports. I really cant wait for that moment to arrive. And it shall be my motivation to move though my ns wif a greater expectation. Really wanted to pull that joke that we came up tgt. Its the in a chat convo she will jio lunch for tml and i shall reply on the next flight over to you haha. One of our random lunch outing joke. Will be looking forward to the opening of the next chapter wif this friend of mine.