Came bac from a funeral. Tried to blog for the pass few hours but failed. My uncle died. A sudden collaspe, diagnosed terminal lung cancer and there he goes. All these happened less than a week. When the news break im numbed dun even know how to react to it.

Went bac yesterday for the last ceremonial and this morning sit through the whole burial ceremony, send him off the last time. I was numbed the whole time, I dunno y i am too. Is it i cant accept the news or i cant except the fact that he is gone. Walk by the coffin and see him the last time be4 the coffin is sealed. I had this unexplainable heartache. Worse is that this is too sudden my grandma oso cant take it. Every time she cry my heart pain sia. Then my grandma was like telling every1 how gd i am. Cos i went bac to visit recently. Whereby im not even that gd to be told in the first place. I feel bad inside.

What happen was be4 this gd friend of mine,Pauline, fly Leo and me met her for an outing. At first suppose to be a small outing within the country then after suggestions it turn to a mini adventure. So we went to my ah ma's kampong there to have seafood that day. Kinda rush cos the 2 ppl late reach there eat seafood go desaru see see then come bac liao. Be4 eat seafood actually the cab pass by my grandma's hse but i never go find her cos i thinking wif friends they might not wan to visit my relative so i proceed wif itinenary. Only thinking that if later after all the thing got time then i go bac visit grandma awhile. As the cab pass by my grandma's hse i saw my grandma standing outside so i pointed to my friend that my grandma as the cab zoom pass. Pauline goes like y never go visit her then i told her if later got time come bac then visit cos cfm will passby my grandma hse de. Last boat was 4 but the boat dun have fix timing to leave 1 only say service stop 4 if they have enuf passenger 3+ they will leave liao. At arnd 240 we r going to come bac from desaru, the cab driver and me know if we dun hurry there wont be a boat for us to return. The cab ride to the jetty is 1/2 hr. Somehow Pauline she insisted that we should go to my ah ma's place to at least visit awhile. We wont make it to the boat in time if we do that. But then again Leo and her brought fruits alr so we went for a short visit in the end. And we missed the boat. Seriously wif her no plans goes rite. And that time I am kinda upset by her spoiling the plans and all the indecisiveness and complains for the trip whole day. The only decisive thing she did that day turn out to be gd.

As to that story my grandma told every1 it all happened thank to this gd friend of mine. I get to see my that uncle the last time jus recently. Somehow my mum oso know my pattern de like wat kind of person i am. So she knew normally i wont have did the things i did in the scenerio. I would have rush them bac jus to catch the last boat as the gateway bac to sg is very impt as there quite ulu other than the boat the only way is take a long drive up to johor come bac through the causeway. If not means we need to stay there for 1 nite come bac the next day. Im super grateful for this gd friend. She really reminds me of my mum, she has the trait of ideal come first not problem. How many such coincidence can happen in life? But it surely did for this 1. Not to say its my first time going bac to the kampong alone without my parents.

Dunno how many coincidental things happen when im wif her. Somehow its uncountable alr. Plans for us never worked. More like the plans i made. Hence i give up planning eventually when going out wif her. Jus meet and let the outing flow only. But things felt rite most time except for the few irritating ones. And it felt rite more than the planned things somehow. Think this statement is proven rite 'There is no such thing as coincidence, there is only inevitability. All things do happen for a reason'.