Sadded. In jus a few hours my emotions took a few rounds of roller coaster ride. Well all i can say is that i cant help it but feel sad no matter wat. Its not like sth can be done about it. Jus that slowly i have to get use to pain thats all. For all that i experiencing now is jus pure pain soon i hope will be numb haha^^

I can be deem as weak or watsoever i will jus take it into heart then. But i know clearly what i wan and what i will follow. I only lack that 1 thing to really lead my life of ideal perfection of having everything in place. But sadly becos i think of this perfection that y i get choke from that 1 missing piece. All i can say is i dun wan to give up on my ideal perfection. But dun wan to argue dun wan to create unnecessary friction. as long as you happy can le. I jus shut up and take it all inside then.

Today first book out. Actually was suppose to be happy but seemly not so now. I do not wish to mention what went wrong or wat did not happen. Tug it all down and i jus have to swollow it down by myself wif no 1 to share to.

Im really glad that i have a gd friend who stood by me when im down haha^^ all thank to this friend im slightly better now. Even at a very late timing still never fails to bomb me wif all the funny logics haha^^ In this friend's context Sleep trimph over everything haha^^ even though my friend dunno what happen or what im thinking cos i mention dun feel like saying but still is able to stand by me. I shall go practice the sleep trimphs over everything logic maybe it works and will take my ideal perfection away haha^^ tired tired sleep sleep dun care dun care.